Times of the Unknown

RANT: In all my adult years, I have never seen the world so f^^d up as it is now.  Today (or rather yesterday), it has touched my life.  I didn't lose my job, but had this furlough thing happen.  Plus side, I get every other Monday off.  Minus I lose the salary I would of made on that day.  I love three day weekends, but not affording to have fun and to spend money freely really sucks.  This is my give and take.  I am contemplating my new Monday life... maybe I can turn this into a positive and go volunteer somewhere. I just need to think where it will be a good symbiotic relationship. We will see where this yr. takes us.  Hopefully, the end of the doomsdays are near, people need to go back to work and stop begging for money. 

Stuff...

FLIP

I own lots of Stuff, in fact, I purchased a flip yesterday. It is a mini video camera that takes short movies. It is about the size of a cell phone. It is pretty handy and maybe I will take it out and shoot numerous life moments of mainly my dog and daughter. We will see what happens. Like cameras, I need them to be in front of me in order to use them. Anyways, life has kind of been on hiatus.  I get depressed about the nature of our city, county, state and country.  It is this ugly trickle down effect. I just do my own thing everyday.  Somedays, I think to just get up and do what ever comes to mind which is frightening.  First class ticket to Paris please?

Rainy weekend

I love the sound of rain. I just don't like being in the rain. Hopefully, it will stop raining by the time I get up and do errands today. This weekend, nothing is happening. Last nt. I saw the Rocker on DVD and fell asleep to A GOOD YEAR with Russell Crowe. The Good Year DVD stopped about 45 min into the movie. This pissed me off so I fell asleep. Anyways, I may try again later by wiping the disc off with windex and then slipping it back in the player.

Out and About

So this week, i was out and about. On Thurs. Nite, I went and saw my long lost friend at the casba. It was a good experience, got to chat for a tiny bit about how we are doing, what we have been doing and just catching up in general. Great to see talent not go to waste. Lots of people were there, ran into a old french class mate and a couple of girls who were staying a the beach hostel even the Mayor. Travellers... to be young. Anyways, I am glad I went and realize I am too old to be staying up so late on a "school" night. On Sat. I went to a friend/neighbor/business associate's brithday party, All her friends were quite nice and I would totally hang with them again. Anyways, this week was 2 for 2, 2 nights of drinks, 2 nights with no vomit. Amazing. Note to self, Nightclubs/Bars are totally hilarious. I would never purposely hang out with one, but if thrown into the situation...take it with a grain of salt. Don't do it too often or you may end up broke. I know I spent $100 this week on these 2 places alone. Thats a lot of mac and cheese... Sunday, I went to lunch with Suzanne and her bf. The beach was warm and cozy..nice quick walk afterwards and then off to Ed's mom for dinner, where she got a new dog that I am not quite sure what to make of him. He's cute but still has some issues. Sounds like lots of people I know. It's February already!!! Obviously, spring is here already. It has been the 70's here in SD for the past week. Cheers..

Come on Universe

I am so tired of the world being so f**cked up. I just want everything to be productive and happy again. It is all doom and gloom. All this greed has gone down the totem pole and now it is going back up to where it started. I am continuing to live the simple life, no drama, no craziness. Just raising the family trying to protect them from the outside world of negativity. Looking outside my glass house, life needs to get better for the rest of the Americans and the world for that matter. I am truly grateful for what i have and the people who surround me. Anyways universe...get a move on. Love, Me

Early Sunday Morning- UPDATE as of 3/12

Getting up in the middle of the night is becoming a huge habit. Stuff in my head that keeps popping up. Maybe there is not enough time in the day. So here are my thoughts for now. Things in my head to get accomplished:

1. gut and redecorate my office -  NOT DONE YET

2. look into running the r and r marathon....4 months to train is doable.- NIX

3. learning how to fuse plastic bags into plastic material using plastic bags and old magazine clippings to make things like wallets and clutches. - NEEDS PRACTICE

4. still the sewing debacle- NEED LESSONS AND A MACHINE

5. printmaking class- SOON

6. setting time aside for self-taught french lessons- NOT YET

7. watching films I like to be inspired. - GETTING THERE

8. being more productive yet rested.

9. Sleeping through the night

10. better at the volunteer service thing.....

where have I been

I have been here, there and everywhere. I saw my grandma, where she lives and how her town is. It is perfect for her. She lives in Yuma half the yr. and the other half in the same town as my aunt and uncle up in N. CA. I think that is a great mix of places for a gal her age. I am more of a city girl myself, I am still young and trying out new things. It really puts things in perspective. My reflection on this, comes to the conclusion- there is more I can do. I tend to think of all the things I can do but never act on them. I see that my home office is a total disaster and I can turn it into a cool room, I just am not up to the work right now. I have to make those action plans. Right now, they are all thoughts... There are things I should be making but I tend to lump the steps together and make it a huge chore, when i should be breaking everything down into small manageable steps. My brain is one big blob of goo right now, it is functional, just not fashionable. So right now where am I, I am trying to train myself out of bad habits. Bad habits of setting my low expectations because it is easier for me to get through life easier. Stop being practical rather than tactical. Doing things for me. What do I want to learn? What do I want to experience? What do I want to accomplish? Those are things I need to find out because I am always changing and everything is evolving in my head. Unfortunately, I am yet to take on those life challenges. I should of been there by now. So as of today, I will explore the roadmap in my head and follow it in the orders it takes me.

history being told

Watching the inauguration on tv right now,truly proud, and it is so cool how many people showed up. I got tickets, but the trek out to that was too costly. It is much warmer watching on my hdtv. I can't explain my joyness and inspiration I feel right now. Yay!!!

crazy..

I am not one to look back..but it has been weird I have been on my own for fourteen yrs. now, I left home at nineteen. Anyways, I looked at my local newspaper website and thought I saw someone I knew in a band picture playing at the local "cool" club. Did some internet searches and sure enough it was him, I used to work with him. I actually went on a date with him once. I thought he was an odd one but cool at the same time. Who knew...trips me out that things are going well for him. Anyways, I am not one to be nostalgic, I would love to say hi, how are you doing.. that kind of banter. I am a mom and am happily married and lead a Cosby Show life and you? It makes things interesting. Anyways, just an observation. I sometimes wonder all the what ifs...I am happy with my crossroads. I enjoyed this reflection. I love to sit back and watch on the progression of life. Now back to watching sitcoms and working 9 to 5. Yay me.

Brand New Year

Seems I only blog when I can't sleep so forgive me if you read incoherent caca. I am diligently keeping track of my purchases on my other blog.. Purchases I made today..which I so far have managed to pile up three days...notes everywhere in my electronic notepads throughout my email and ipod touch. My Ipod touch.. it is genius. I love it, what a time waster. It is that in a good way. I have applications galore, what is on tv, games, koi ponds, facebook applications... you name it. It is not the iphone, which doesn't bother me because I like my ghetto razr. It works and connects to the bluetooth speaker phone in my car- I think that is all that matters. I have to say, the holidays came and went.. which is a good thing. I did take a mini-trip to SF and also saw my folks and family in Modesto. All in all... pretty painless. This year I am blaring the positive vibes....maybe they should make yoga class mandatory for them politicians they seem to blare the negatives lately. In a perfect world.

Gingerbread house making

This year, it was simple.  Take kit and make it with just the items it came with.  I got into a fight with the frosting, but other than that it was a piece of cake, no falling walls on the house, this year unlike last year. The trees were another story.  Anyways, enjoy the pics of gingerbread house makin' 2008...

It's Friday

Elise awoke me this morning. She drank a whole bottle of water before she went to bed. I guess she knows what happens if she does this so close to her bedtime. So I am wide awake now, almost 2 in the morning, when most of San Diego is asleep right now. I will go back to sleep after I wind down but I always feel like a zombie in the morning. The weeks have flown by. Ed already had his holiday party, we stayed the night at the HR hotel in downtown SD. So once a yr., it is a valid excuse to drink too much. Luckily, this time, I did not vomit. It was nice to see how partiers do it once in a while and how spending too much money feels like, without actually spending it (company party, company tab). Also, on my adventure last weekend, I ate fish. I never eat fish, but the funny thing, the fish wasn't fishy. But I am not a fish eater, so that was my hazy experience eating fish. This week has gone by too fast. The massive consumer holiday christmas is almost among us. I did not buy myself the Ipod touch I want. This year, I will pass on buying for myself. I do need gym socks though, maybe that will be my splurge. It feels weird seeing commercials for stores like Mervyns on the tv, saying they are closing their doors forever. I think that is where I bought my childhood wardrobe. Sadness on the memories of watching the open open commercials and the brands like ellemenno, cheetah, etc.. fade away. This holiday isn't like all the others that we will have massive present opening sessions. But at least we have each other.

Paris on my mind

Tout le temps.... mais pas le temps. Translation: All the time, but not the weather. Now how can le temps, mean the time and the weather?? I love sunny and warm. I guess that is why I live in San Diego. Also, I am not financially stable to travel right now. I have to keep my job secure and cannot spend any discretionary income. Did I mention real estate is worth nada anymore. Nada equals no credit lines. If I can have goals, then my goal is 2010....Paris awaits me again.. If I do not spend (see spending blog, starting Jan. 09), I will go to the city of lights. I am still learning this difficult language with my dictionary always by my side in class. I am even on Paris time... It is apres midi there now. But soon, I will return to San Diego time...otherwise I may turn into a pumpkin *(potiron), possibly at work today. C'est la vie.

BLACK FRIDAY

Why the name Black Friday for the ritual of buying countless things that you don't need, get a discount on gifts on things other people won't need?  I am sure I can wikipedia the origin, but I it is almost 5 am and I am too lazy.  I am not going anywhere on Friday, I am not going shopping, I do not need a useless mp3 player that holds 10 songs or a dvd player that plays special dvds  that makes the picture a tad better. I have an amazon.com wishlist, all of these things I don't need but want.  Someday, little by little, I may get them.  Right now, they look good on that wishlist.  What I wish for is a three-month trip to Paris...all expenses paid, my job on hold and family that can come or wait for me to get back from Paris.  I would really want to take my dog Stewie.  My other confession... watching a Parisian Bakery webcam around 8 in the evening, they are baking their morning bread in this cool oven.  And another thought, why do I buy things as gifts that I want to keep for myself.  There are these cool earrings I bought on etsy.  I am not sure who I want to give them to , I was thinking Elise (she says the rhyme from time to time), but she may loose them, that is what 6 year old girls do.   I want to say on this Thanksgiving morning at 5 am.  I am thankful for having a roof over my head to shelter this hard falling rain from me, my friends and family, a job, food to feed my family and for the internet to keep all that is far near to me.  I am going to go back to bed now. 

HAPPINESS

Things that make me happy...

cute toys

traveling for leisure

Paris

kids/husband behaving

sleep

a good movie/good tv shows

family

starbucks white chocolate mochas

puppies, kittens

a good book

friends that talk to me on a regular basis

Madonna

Obama

Oprah

Sarah Silverman

watching people have fun

------------------------------------------------------------------------

Now I can go to work and wonder how this all fits into the picture.  

inspiration

I am often inspired, I read blogs and see lovely things I want to buy. This consumerism bug has really got to go. I love cute stuff, but right now it is look and not buy. I go to the store and see cute dollar items at Target. I have to think to myself, is that going to collect dust in a week and is it that cute for a dollar? This leaves the poor hello kitty paper pad alone in the bin collecting its dust at the store. I want to bring a camera and photo all the stuff I am tempted to buy, but I don't think you are able to photo in stores. I am starting to buy little things for xmas gifts, but I am tempted to keep all this stuff because I quit buying things for myself. I want to try the year without experiment, but I am scared. There inspiration and temptation is too much. Maybe I can get this out of my system before Jan. 1. The year without material items. Buy only what you need (school books). No new clothes, souvenirs, crap at the dollar store. Exceptions are starbucks and eating in restaurants. You can buy kids clothes, at beginning of school season. No buying music for exception of free stuff and listening on rhapsody for free. Hmmm. Lets see how much I save and how long it lasts. I will have to be concious and journal all my purchases. This is a new leaf, lets see if I can turn it and how much money I can save.

Muchadoabout Nothing

News flash... The economy is tanking.  I am becoming cautious, I am not buying crafts at Michaels anymore, I had a handful of things and put them back. I don't think I can cut down on my coffee habit, getting manis and pedis or learning French.  I probably have to not buy clothes for a while and not dream of weeks in Europe on my credit line.   Also, we got a letter in the mail saying our house is worth nothing (it is worth something, but nothing in my head) and our second morgage credit line limit has been drastically reduced. Pool dreams are officially over. I have posted some happy pictures to make this world a better place.  I am glad for all the cute stuff I have in my possession. I am thinking of having a garage sale to fund my vacations, drastic measures call for drastic times. 

An evening with Madonna

What an evening it was, Just want to say first of all, it was an honor celebrating the night with a bunch of great people. It was on election night, so this night was extra special. I have been to Madonna concerts before but this is the first one that i didn't have to leave town and also, more importantly, it was a start of a beautiful future; Obama was elected!! Now the nameless dynamic duo will fall off the face of the earth. Madonna started the night about an hour and a half after the time on my ticket. But it was all worth it, the set on the PETCO park field where I am used to watch the Padres baseball games was gi- enormous. The stage and lights were insane, no wonder this evening cost me over three hundred and fifty dollars a ticket. Madonna proceeded to play about two hours. Ed and I sat (stood) around an array of people, straight, gay, old and young... we sat (stood all night) next to two "bears" and were kind enough to share their goodies with us ( that sounds really bad, but I can't reveal anything illegal here). Now that sounded really bad, just say it was a happy night, no one was harmed. We got to rush the stage and be a part of the concert experience. I am a little spec somewhere in that youtube video. I have real pictures from my camera, but have to wait to get my files from Ed, who downloaded on his computer and erased the camera so I couldn't get them myself. I was in awe, I am still in awe. I also have to say even though she is 50, she doesn't move like it, she is Madonna and will always be. Here was the set list...MADONNA's PETCO PARK SET LIST

"Candy Shop"
"Beat Goes On"
"Human Nature" BRITNEY dedicated video...her LA show was cameo'd by BRIT and JUSTIN
"Vogue"
"Die Another Day" (Remix) (Video Interlude)
"Into the Groove" BACK GROUND with KEITH HARING ART
"Heartbeat"
"Borderline" GREAT ROCK and ROLL version, was very nolstalgic
"She's Not Me"
"Music"
"Rain" (Remix) (Video Interlude)
"Devil Wouldn't Recognize You"
"Spanish Lesson"
"Miles Away"
"La Isla Bonita"
"Doli Doli" (Dance Interlude)
"You Must Love Me"
"Get Stupid" (Video Interlude)
"4 Minutes"
"Like a Prayer"
"Ray of Light"
"Express Yourself"
"Hung Up"
"Give It 2 Me"

yeah, lets party!!!

I found this hilarious!!

I am so happy!  Hope won!  

Halloween Weekend

It was a fun day.... Looking forward to Tuesday, finally we will know who our president for the next 4 years will be(of course it will be Obama, the real hope for America) and this endless hatefest from the McCain camp will end and what is with those who are wanting to pass Proposition 8 ( it is the keeping marriage between a man and a woman), not fair to all my friends who's partner's are of the same-sex, they deserve all the same benefits of marriage as a man and a woman.  Anyways, the Madonna concert is also on Tuesday!!  I think I have seen her three times already, but the forth is a charm.. Also it is in San Diego.  NO TRAVELLING!!  It should be a good Tuesday.