Come on Universe

I am so tired of the world being so f**cked up. I just want everything to be productive and happy again. It is all doom and gloom. All this greed has gone down the totem pole and now it is going back up to where it started. I am continuing to live the simple life, no drama, no craziness. Just raising the family trying to protect them from the outside world of negativity. Looking outside my glass house, life needs to get better for the rest of the Americans and the world for that matter. I am truly grateful for what i have and the people who surround me. Anyways universe...get a move on. Love, Me

Early Sunday Morning- UPDATE as of 3/12

Getting up in the middle of the night is becoming a huge habit. Stuff in my head that keeps popping up. Maybe there is not enough time in the day. So here are my thoughts for now. Things in my head to get accomplished:

1. gut and redecorate my office -  NOT DONE YET

2. look into running the r and r marathon....4 months to train is doable.- NIX

3. learning how to fuse plastic bags into plastic material using plastic bags and old magazine clippings to make things like wallets and clutches. - NEEDS PRACTICE

4. still the sewing debacle- NEED LESSONS AND A MACHINE

5. printmaking class- SOON

6. setting time aside for self-taught french lessons- NOT YET

7. watching films I like to be inspired. - GETTING THERE

8. being more productive yet rested.

9. Sleeping through the night

10. better at the volunteer service thing.....

where have I been

I have been here, there and everywhere. I saw my grandma, where she lives and how her town is. It is perfect for her. She lives in Yuma half the yr. and the other half in the same town as my aunt and uncle up in N. CA. I think that is a great mix of places for a gal her age. I am more of a city girl myself, I am still young and trying out new things. It really puts things in perspective. My reflection on this, comes to the conclusion- there is more I can do. I tend to think of all the things I can do but never act on them. I see that my home office is a total disaster and I can turn it into a cool room, I just am not up to the work right now. I have to make those action plans. Right now, they are all thoughts... There are things I should be making but I tend to lump the steps together and make it a huge chore, when i should be breaking everything down into small manageable steps. My brain is one big blob of goo right now, it is functional, just not fashionable. So right now where am I, I am trying to train myself out of bad habits. Bad habits of setting my low expectations because it is easier for me to get through life easier. Stop being practical rather than tactical. Doing things for me. What do I want to learn? What do I want to experience? What do I want to accomplish? Those are things I need to find out because I am always changing and everything is evolving in my head. Unfortunately, I am yet to take on those life challenges. I should of been there by now. So as of today, I will explore the roadmap in my head and follow it in the orders it takes me.

history being told

Watching the inauguration on tv right now,truly proud, and it is so cool how many people showed up. I got tickets, but the trek out to that was too costly. It is much warmer watching on my hdtv. I can't explain my joyness and inspiration I feel right now. Yay!!!

crazy..

I am not one to look back..but it has been weird I have been on my own for fourteen yrs. now, I left home at nineteen. Anyways, I looked at my local newspaper website and thought I saw someone I knew in a band picture playing at the local "cool" club. Did some internet searches and sure enough it was him, I used to work with him. I actually went on a date with him once. I thought he was an odd one but cool at the same time. Who knew...trips me out that things are going well for him. Anyways, I am not one to be nostalgic, I would love to say hi, how are you doing.. that kind of banter. I am a mom and am happily married and lead a Cosby Show life and you? It makes things interesting. Anyways, just an observation. I sometimes wonder all the what ifs...I am happy with my crossroads. I enjoyed this reflection. I love to sit back and watch on the progression of life. Now back to watching sitcoms and working 9 to 5. Yay me.

Brand New Year

Seems I only blog when I can't sleep so forgive me if you read incoherent caca. I am diligently keeping track of my purchases on my other blog.. Purchases I made today..which I so far have managed to pile up three days...notes everywhere in my electronic notepads throughout my email and ipod touch. My Ipod touch.. it is genius. I love it, what a time waster. It is that in a good way. I have applications galore, what is on tv, games, koi ponds, facebook applications... you name it. It is not the iphone, which doesn't bother me because I like my ghetto razr. It works and connects to the bluetooth speaker phone in my car- I think that is all that matters. I have to say, the holidays came and went.. which is a good thing. I did take a mini-trip to SF and also saw my folks and family in Modesto. All in all... pretty painless. This year I am blaring the positive vibes....maybe they should make yoga class mandatory for them politicians they seem to blare the negatives lately. In a perfect world.