where have I been

I have been here, there and everywhere. I saw my grandma, where she lives and how her town is. It is perfect for her. She lives in Yuma half the yr. and the other half in the same town as my aunt and uncle up in N. CA. I think that is a great mix of places for a gal her age. I am more of a city girl myself, I am still young and trying out new things. It really puts things in perspective. My reflection on this, comes to the conclusion- there is more I can do. I tend to think of all the things I can do but never act on them. I see that my home office is a total disaster and I can turn it into a cool room, I just am not up to the work right now. I have to make those action plans. Right now, they are all thoughts... There are things I should be making but I tend to lump the steps together and make it a huge chore, when i should be breaking everything down into small manageable steps. My brain is one big blob of goo right now, it is functional, just not fashionable. So right now where am I, I am trying to train myself out of bad habits. Bad habits of setting my low expectations because it is easier for me to get through life easier. Stop being practical rather than tactical. Doing things for me. What do I want to learn? What do I want to experience? What do I want to accomplish? Those are things I need to find out because I am always changing and everything is evolving in my head. Unfortunately, I am yet to take on those life challenges. I should of been there by now. So as of today, I will explore the roadmap in my head and follow it in the orders it takes me.