Writing is theraputic

Only on blogger.  I haven't been able to put pen to paper, I write only in the middle of the night and what is on my mind or passionate about.  I need to catch up on my Getting Goop-y posts about Gwyneth's blog.  Maybe that will be my Catharsis to get my life on track again.  I am slowly getting there, I guess that why 'work' is called 'work', you work to make a living, you work to have a life, you work to make something you enjoy.  It is quite a process, I do see a light though really faint, I see it. 

Oh the changes we seek

Life is one of those mysterious things.  All the challenges, uphill battles it brings. I guess life would be one boring gesture if there were no ups and downs in life.  I take this challenge on to find what makes me happy, fulfilled.  I have to keep telling myself one journey may lead to another.  I think I am like the character Matt in Ugly Betty, always going from one thing to the next. This summer, for as long as I can, I plan to enjoy my time with my children, maybe try to volunteer for a bit. Apply to colleges for work...not sure about private sector jobs anymore, they are too elusive. Get myself out there to see if I have marketable skills for the masses.  Love the continuous weekend I am having so far, but I know that will get old knowing my trips to Europe will be scarce if I don't work.  

Today

Today, I joined the ranks of the unemployed.  I really am totally ok with it. My line of work is a dying art.  The only thing is what do you do for money?  If I had a choice and now I do, what should I do with my life now.  Things I like right now. France, french things, art....this all leads to me being a artsy Parisian.  Realistic no but anything is possible.  Truly, I need to be me.  I have been suppressing it too long. I am going to decide in the next coming weeks what is right for me. Not a job, not a career, but truly what is me.  My passion, what drives me. Not just what collects a paycheck.  I have played that game too long.  C'est la vie.  Another fork in my illustrious world of me.