Wakey Wakey eggs and bakey

Someday I will grow up, just grow up. I need to wake up and just live my life. Stop thinking what if I did this, what if I did that. What am I happy with, what are my accomplishments. Nearing another birthday in about 3 weeks I am pondering lots of what ifs. I am not going to do that anymore, I am going to think about doing now. I will think of goals far future, near future and next month, and then next week. Just go with it. Know I will retire someday, being the best that I can be- knowing I did my best raising my kids, upkeeping the house and home . Knowing I did try my best going forward from today. Find that paths today lead to other paths tomorrow, no matter how many roadblocks I had in my paths, I found my way out of them. Is this statement so hard to practice? Time will tell but at least I said it.